Feeling blue

I'm feeling pretty down and blue today.  I know the cause of it and I only have myself to blame.  I'm just feeling like I need major changes in my life.  I'm the only one who can do anything about the things I don't like.  Sometimes I feel so ALONE!  98% of the time, I'm really content being single.  But there are times that I just feel so alone and dejected.  Holidays alone are not much fun.  But I made the choice to stay alone yesterday.  I could have reached out to others and tried to be a help to someone but I thought it was so much smarter to stay home by myself!  Stupid!  I'll be with family tomorrow.  I would prefer to stay home and in bed all weekend but I've got to make changes.  I'm in a downward spiral and I've got to break free from the undertow.