I had a not too great weekend. I'm kind of in a black hole emotionally and as a result, my weekend was not as productive as I would have liked. I spent $6 Friday afternoon at Hardee's and then $13.06 on Saturday at Crossroads. I sure would have been in a better place if I hadn't done that. I am really and truly tired in my life right now. I don't seem to have passion for anything and I hate being like that. I miss Mom and Dad so much and I feel so alone. There's nothing to be done except putting one foot in front of the other.
I do have plans to go to the mountains with Carolyn this Friday. That will give me something to look forward to. I hate getting in this downward spiral. I feel awful and have a hard time seeing the light. Poor sleep only exaggerates this feelings. Last night, I felt like I was just barely asleep all night. Must have woken up a hundred times. I will keep on trying though because that's all there is to do. I will trust that there is a light out there and I will see it if I continue on.
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